Wall for Amethyst (page 716)

Thx anddddd


Imma ask another meta question, as soon as I think of one lmao

Passed u up on meta.

Sorry.

But what kind of "help" would I be getting?

Suicidal? No. Even if I was, I'd be too frightened to end my own life. And I'm not getting help. I don't know what help it is, but I'm not going to say "Hey mom, I'm very depressed and hate life and I need professional help." I don't know exactly what about life I should love. But I am hearing very patriotic music play and I am loving it. A spirit-lifter.

Now you see why I don't care about myself. There's no reason to. I am beginning to hate my life, as there's no reason to love it. No reason to love myself.

Why shouldn't I? Well, let me think... oh, that's right. I'm cowardly, hateful, rude, disrespectful, klutzy, stupid, weak, my life sucks, and my affections are focused on a video game character instead of someone who could actually love me because I don't want a boyfriend or husband or kids. Third time that last one's happened. I'm useless.

I don't see why I should care about myself, but whatever. And I'm glad you realized that you can't "knock sense into me". So stop trying to fix my flaws. They're mine, not yours.

Sorry, I hadn't been checking my wall so I didn't reply. I can't say I recall being any nicer than I am now. If I've changed, I say it's because change comes with age and realization. I realized that my life didn't matter, heh. Anyway, I can't say I really care at this point. If my friends leave me, my friends leave me. I've been friendless for a few years before I came to the site, and I can be friendless for the rest of my life. I don't want my friends to leave me, but if they want to, they can go straight ahead. I'm not gonna drop to their feet and beg them to stay my friend. It's their choice. I know this probably won't make any sense, but my heart has always been laced with darkness. You, and most likely others, want me to be respectful. I'm sorry, but bugging me about it isn't going to make me learn. Maybe nothing will.

TBH glazio and I have been less than friendlg sibce ny 3 week absence awhile back she says she and I have nothing in common now, and no longer cares about my FFs heh icstop asking if she wanted to do OCs awhile ago. Now she won’t leave you alone and i hare it so now i am also severing ties not that i care but i noticed the glazio bews didn 4 make to my wall today. She’s gone to far for my liking so yeah as much as sides suck i think u know who’s i’m ib

I spy an X in chat lol