Allison read the letters I gave here today (or at least one of them) and she responded. She doesn't want to be friends anymore. Basically, she doesn't read the letters I send her anymore, because I write too much (which, I'll admit, I do, but I can't help it sometimes, I think a lot), she doesn't like writing back, and because I send them at the worst times (Sometimes, I'm cursed with bad timing lol). She also doesn't want to be the one I vent to (which to that, I'll say I vent about my feelings more to the internet people), and she doesn't want me to develop anymore feelings for her (because she finds it creepy, especially since I know where her instrument case is, which dang , she really doesn't like that...). She doesn't feel like hanging out anymore, and she feels like she tells me too much and it gets awkward for her. She ended saying sorry if it sounded harsh, and she tried politely to decline our friendship.
Tbh I kinda expected something like this, and it actually didn't sting much or get me down. In fact, it actually made me happier. My feelings for her, and my nervousness, are gone (but to be fair, I never liked her THAT much, it was only a little which is why it was so quick), and I'm feeling soooooo relieved, now that I don't have to worry about my feelings. I definitely could have played the cards differently, and maybe we'd still be friends (which I'm not all that too bummed out about), but it's life, and what happened happened.
Jan 21, 2022
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Ditto
