Wall for RaidenTheSworded 雷電 (page 7)

She read the letters (or at least one of them) and she responded. She doesn't want to be friends anymore. Basically, she doesn't read the letters I send her anymore,  because I write too much (which, I'll admit, I do, but I can't help it sometimes, I think a lot), she doesn't like writing back, and because I send them at the worst times (Sometimes, I'm cursed with bad timing lol). She also doesn't want to be the one I vent to (which to that, I'll say I vent about my feelings more to the internet people), and she doesn't want me to develop anymore feelings for her (because she finds it creepy, especially since I know where her instrument case is, which dang , she really doesn't like that...). She doesn't feel like hanging out anymore, and she feels like she tells me too much and it gets awkward for her. She ended saying sorry if it sounded harsh, and she tried politely to decline our friendship.

Tbh I kinda expected something like this, and it actually didn't sting much or get me down. In fact, it actually made me happier. My feelings for her, and my nervousness, are gone (but to be fair, I never liked her THAT much, it was only a little which is why it was so quick), and I'm feeling soooooo relieved, now that I don't have to worry about my feelings. I definitely could have played the cards differently, and maybe we'd still be friends (which I'm not all that too bummed out about), but it's life, and what happened happened.

Hey Raiden. What's up?

I'm great too!! Sorry for the late reply lol I went to sleep yesterday

I'm giving Lavender some letters, basically saying I'm 38% sure I like her along with some other things. Hopefully, things won't be TOO awkward between us after I give her the letters

I'm still in the same spot with my new partner (the one I got yesterday, not Lavender).

Also, I don't care what y'all think. Black Rose is the name and I won't change it. The name has a special significance (which I won't share), and Wither Rose makes me sound all sad and depressed.

heyy how ya doing? :]

Some Viola partners got switched around and I have a new partner. I'm sooo much more comfortable now. I did see Lavender talking to the orchestra teacher at the end of class, I'm not exactly sure what she asked, but I'm praying unto God it wasn't about switching seats...

ZAMA!! Im doing fine, how about you?

Yep, I'll need all the luck I can get. Well, tbf, I was sitting next to her last semester, but we weren't partners...

Tbh I haven't been really paying too much attention to that. I've been quite nervous around her, and I've been trying to avoid her for a while, to give her some space...

Oh yeah, Lavender is my new stand partner for Orchestra. This semester is gonna give me SOOO much Fun...
(Freakishly unusual nervousness)