Wall for Amethyst (page 47)

cutie <3, i'm down to talk more in general i'm just not great at starting conversations

AM I NO LONGER THE BEST PERSON ON THE SITE

I’m trying to live day to day but it’s really scary what the future holds, especially when it seems so impossible when written out

Also on that note, my bf may just up and ditch his uni and transfer to the one local to me but that’s still up in the air. It’s so hard figuring out life

We can’t live together until we’re married
If we ignore that, he will be disowned
If we get married, where would we even live?
He can’t live in my house
Which means I move there or he moves here
And that means him changing schools or dropping out to help with rent
If we want to buy a house, it would be a few more years because I’m **** at saving
So that means a few more years until we can be local
Which means two more years until we can even get married
But I want to give birth in 2026 and it’s already practically 2023
And he isn’t graduating until like 2027
And if he transfers, it’ll be even longer
Which means we can’t move in or get married until 2027
But I don’t want to live at home until 2027 and I don’t want to live on my own
So if I move out he has to move in with me, it’s non-negotiable because I’m lonely
And then we’d have to get married or he’d be disowned….. and you get the cycle.

It’s definitely understandable

On a similar topic, my bf’s family is actually considering moving to where I am to be local, but their other son doesn’t want to for the same reason. Part of me is like “well f*** him” and the other part of me is like “wow it would be really selfish to make a whole family abandon their lives just so I can go on dates with my boyfriend”

Sure

I am a vampire

That genuinely means a lot to me. I really appreciate it.

I was never trying to be the scary one I wanted people to talk to me ;-;

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