Saw your posts and wanted to comment on them.
Firstly, I want to clarify that I'm not certain where my feelings are right now. I'll have to see what Allison's response to my letter is on Tuesday, but until then, I'm just left to waver.
Second, I don't know anything about Allison's fake relationship except what she wrote, which wasn't THAT much, and I don't know how long ago it happened. I don't want to pry, and potentially make her uncomfortable (again) by bringing up that topic, so I don't think I'll ask about it.
Thirdly, I personally don't mind if Allison avoids me for a while, and I even said that in my letter. I have this weird quirk where sometimes, I sorta synchronize with (or rather, think about) a person's pain or feelings, and I can feel the pain and understand them a bit. Also, I'm not exactly sure Allison had/has feelings for me, I never really thought about it but I still don't think so. She even said she doesn't have feelings for me a about a month ago, but that was before I confessed...
Fourthly, I wouldn't say "love" or "attraction" since I find those words a bit too strong. If I do have feelings before, it would be quite small (like last time), although they might develop. If I find I do have feelings for Allison, I wouldn't know what my goals would be from there, since I wouldn't be quite ready to start a relationship. I still feel a bit bad for making her uncomfortable, since she's someone I really care about, and I don't like hurting the one's I really care about...
And lastly, the most important thing. I'm not a teenager. I'M A FERKING 8 YEAR OLD!!! >:((
Jan 15, 2022
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Ditto
