heh. i know nothing about how any of you are. if you ever do come back, i wouldn't shut you out. it wouldn't be the same. some of you might even hate me. i've definitely hurt people. but i want to talk to you again. i tried to move on, you know, tried to forget. it was the healthy choice. but i couldn't do it. i couldn't erase all of that from my head. eight months of my life, so many ups and downs, and you and your friends were there, as my friends. so much has changed since then, and yet so much is still the same. i feel so conflicted. i hate that i tried to move on, but i also hate that i couldn't do it. i can't get everything out of my head. if and when you come back, i'd really like to talk again. even if you cut me off after. just so i know you're all ok, and to at least say hi since you were all ripped away from me. if it was all ever even real to begin with. i hope it was. i don't know when, or even if, you'll ever see this. and i don't care who else stumbles across this message. i'm just letting you know that i never stopped thinking about all of you.
3 days ago
by
Spex
