If you pierced right through me with a knife,
That would be nice, that would be nice.
If you stabbed me with your absurd, pretentious speech,
That would be nice, that would be nice.
Even though I've thrown it in the trash already,
I've been hiding my entire life in the cuffs of my sleeves.
And there it's remained, unable to be burned, not turning into ash.
I want to die, I want to disappear, there's nothing left for me here,
There's no more hope in a life like this
So I'm just standing here in this nightmare,
In a world that bloomed from my choked past.
I'm broken, I'm covered in invisible wounds,
They won't be able to scab over,
And I know that
So I write the future with this lament.
Pretending to be alive while marching toward death,
That's life, isn't it? That's life.
So then why were we born into this world,
In such immature, imperfect bodies,
Each one with a heart still beating?
That's right, I tried to get a flower to bloom
By watering it with this crumpled watering can
But there wasn't even a single seed scattered in the dirt.
That's why I slipped away, abandoned it,
The love that's like a plague on this world,
And the depths of a superficial friend's affection
Are thinner than a fingernail.
I don't know anything, I don't want to know anything,
There's no deeper meaning behind these words anyway
And I know that,
So I write the future with this lament.
I only have enough wax on this candle to last me one way,
And I'm desperately trying to keep it aflame.
In the dimly lit inch I can see ahead, who do those tracks belong to,
Who's the one who's fallen into a hole?
That's life for you, the life that we have.
Was the very act of being born a mistake?
I want to die, I want to disappear,
There's nothing left for me here, there's no more hope in a life like this.
So I'm just standing here in this nightmare,
In a world that bloomed from my choked past.
I'm broken, I'm covered in invisible wounds,
They won't be able to scab over,
And I know that,
So I write the future with this lament.
I'll write the future with this lament.
"I want to disappear, I want to disappear;"
How many times have I said that to myself by now?
Please, give me regrets, so that I can no longer dream.
Jun 19, 2023
by
y-chai
I run to the hurricane, a force of nature gone insane
What seemed impossible is finally realized
Leave all the fear and the doubt behind, the moment's now or it's never mine
There is no time to lose, no room for compromise
Loneliness, lonely night, drifting away as your dreams fill your mind
Slipping through my arms, fading far apart into the darkness
Like a shooting star, I will fly into the midnight
Soaring through the dark while it's whispering your name
I will make it through, I'll reach out to you, I want you
I am here to prove I won't let you down, no, no!
It looks like I've gone head-over-heels falling for you
Jun 18, 2023
by
Gau
